Flares

I dislike having to deal with periods for many reasons.

1. I swell up
2. It flares my Lupus
3. I'm exhausted
4. I can hardly eat
5. I gain water weight

I have a feeling my period is fixing to start now because it's hard for me to exercise and I tend to sleep longer. My body is very tender to touch and I can move around like I used to. My sleep schedule is totally messed up because of how sick I feel. I just want this flare up to be over with already 🙄🤢😷

The great feeling of pain

Today is Friday, the last day of my workouts and I decided to do cardio (Stupid mistake). My legs are burning 🔥 and my body is extremely exhausted and in pain 😭. A nice salt bubble bath will be my bestfriend for the next few days until I can gain the engery and the pain is not as hurtful from the past workout sessions.
Getting up early every morning has been hard for me. It finally caught up to me yesterday when I could barely walk around the store with my mom and drive around town as well. I took me a nap as soon as I finish eating my breakfast and watched the rest of the wnba game.

Knowing my body is in pain tells me the exercises are working. That's a great feeling to me even though it makes things hard for me to do stuff, I still feel like I have accomplished my fears 👌🏽

Food is my bestfriend

Food, I love you. I eat you every day and try my best to eat you almost every hour of the day and night. But why do you have to be so bad for me. You cannot be salty, dry, too much sugar. All you need to be is full of protein to help me with my kidneys. Be tasteful for me to eat and help out with the workout. A good diet while exercising will make my weight come off faster. I understand being on a lot of steroids will cause me to eat more and have a appetite like a elephant.

This is our new season food. It's time for us to change. My eating habits will NOT be a problem anymore! If I eat healthy I will feel healthier.
I do not want to do this but I HAVE to do it. New week, New start, New me. 💪🏼

Tired or just lazy?Β 

Yesterday was a great day for me because of the knowledge of my weight loss but today my body is extremely exhausted from my exercises. 

Dealing with an autoimmune disease our body tends to have the symptom called fatigue. This symptom mean that we will be tired a lot and will need to relax every once in awhile. This morning my body is telling me to just stay in bed and do not do anything.. But I am hard head so I actually did more exercises but upper body exercise because my legs are still burning from yesterday πŸ˜‚. 

I’m not lazy because I need to take a nap or if I need to just relax and stay in bed. My body is tired and hurting pretty badly. A day to rest doesn’t always help but it settles things down for people with autoimmune diseases. It might take longer than expected but we are NOT lazy. 

I am doing my brother a favor and babysit his dog who is like a son to him and like a nephew to me πŸΆπŸ•πŸΎ I could’ve said “No, I am tired and I need to rest” but I didn’t. That’s proof that I am not lazy but just tired. 

To answer the smart remarks about this situation is that we are not lazy, we are just tired because our bodies do not have much energy in them but we fight it and pay for it every day; Therefore, before you say “Your not tired you just lazy” take a look at what they’ve been through and take a step further back and be in their shoes. 

Shrinking and I love it!Β 

I have the best news to share with you guys on this lovely morning! 

Now, being overweight never been a problem for me because I used to be an athlete and was constantly doing some type of physical activity whether it was for basketball, volleyball and/or track (shot put). I was muscular and big boned but never overweight. 

Over the period of time once I had stopped playing sports and stopped doing physical activities I had gained a bunch of weight. When I was diagnosed with Lupus they had to put me on steroids πŸ˜”. At first they didn’t effect my ability to do anything but helped me become stronger but the more active my Lupus was becoming the higher my dosage went. I ended up gaining a lot of weight plus water weight from my kidneys not functioning properly. 

My body has changed several times by shrinking to gaining then gaining to shrinking. It caused me to have all kinds of stretch marks and loose skins and a deformed stomach πŸ™„ 

I’ve been struggling to lose weight these past few months. I was stuck in the 200 pounds Era.. Recently, I was weighing 205 pounds πŸ˜” I’m 20 years old and I felt like that weight shouldn’t be on me. I hated being so big it made me feel so bad about myself and have a self-esteem of a seed. 

For a few weeks now I’ve been doing a little bit of exercises on my own. This week I came up to Oklahoma City for a church convention and at 3 o’clock this morning I went to the fitness room at my hotel. 

Now, remember me telling you I weighed 205 pounds? Well guys, I weighed myself before I started working out and I was 188, but after I was finished I weighed myself once again and I was 183.

 All together I have lost 22 pounds!! Can you guys believe it? I have officially lost the weight and I am feeling great! What you do in the dark will come to the light! And my little session came with success. My stomach is coming back and I will be back down to my old shaped but better! I had to dress myself up this morning because I feel AMAZING  so I am going to look AMAZING! πŸ”₯πŸ”₯